Hey, It's a Blog Post. Wait, Change of Plans...
I often wonder why I can’t roll with the punches in certain points of my day. For example, if I have a plan in mind on how my day is going or on how I am going to accomplish a task and things don’t go according to that plan, I have this internal meltdown. I usually keep my cool, but there are times it can become very difficult for me to function, and I shut down. I like plans and structure. Often, I will make my personal and professional calendar for at least a week in advance, and I try not to deviate too far from the line. I leave open spaces for appropriate times where I feel things could come up last minute (see, there’s another planned moment for spontaneity).
This sort of reactionary behavior has only been amplified since I graduated from college. I’ve written in this blog before about my challenges with anxiety, and I somehow feel that this is tied into that. As of right now, I don’t really know the cause.
I don’t know what the purpose of this post was going to be about when I wrote it out initially; I figured I would just start typing and see what you, my friends, maybe thought about this. Feel free to discuss your anxiety issues or experiences with this if you’re comfortable with this topic. Consider my rant over.
Have a beautiful weekend, everyone.