I can't seem to find the right chakra.
Good morning everyone. It’s been a little over a month since my last post, and I’ve had such a wonderful whirlwind of experiences happen to me. I can be more candid about a couple things if I haven’t already been so. I’ve started my new job, and I’m deeply in love with it. I’m working in the field that I studied for while in my undergraduate pursuit, which is something that doesn’t happen regularly for most students graduating and moving to the working world these days.
I’ve been at this place for a month now, and it’s always changing and very fast-paced, which I love. I’m not sedentary in one place anymore. I get the chance to cover events, run around and take photos, hone in on my photo editing skills, and develop a stronger social media presence for my company and its brand. I just feel so blessed at this moment in my life.
Of course, there is always something. I can’t even describe to you what it is. By this point, you’re probably over my diatribe about how great my life is and where I’m going juxtaposed to the inner turmoil I may be dealing with at a given time. This is my outlet for my anxieties and my fears. This is also my outlet for my victories and my peaks. I’m incredibly happy at the moment, but is that happiness enough?
I feel as though there is always something missing in what I’m doing. I’m on the search for whatever that may be. Before this point, I had it figured out that true happiness had to have been enough. But something, whatever it is, is gnawing at me. This could very well be my inner-self trying to psyche myself out. Don’t get the wrong impression; I’m not leaving this job any time soon. I have to figure out what it is that I’m not facing the right way. I get up in the morning excited to go to work. I love the people I'm working with and the job I'm doing there. But when night comes, I can’t sleep well and my anxieties set in. The million-dollar question: what on earth could it be?